Last month I turned forty-four. As I am inching my way up the ladder of time, I find myself doing a lot of contemplating. When I think of my 20's, and my 30's my thoughts are met with so much regret. I feel like I could have been so much more intentional in life. I did a lot of things right, but so much wrong. I had a lot of hurdles to work through in my life. I have always been a strong woman, but my priorities were so imbalanced. I was so caught up in a chaotic mindset. My marriage was stable, but far from bliss. Just this past October I celebrated 20 years married to my husband. I got the best gift ever! My husband became a NEW man and I am not exaggerating at all! The great news is that not only did he become new, but my love for him bloomed in a way I always hoped was possible. My personality is red/green and he is yellow/blue. According to the Color Spectrum test that makes us perfect compliments to each other. However, it didn't always feel that way! I realize now that when we are operating in our "true colors" as opposed to our troublesome traits, marriage can indeed be blissful! This year for my birthday I feel like I entered a new stage of wisdom, a new stage in marriage and a new stage as a mother of eight children. I genuinely feel like my 40's are fabulous! I have confidence that is not based on vanity, but purpose. I am comfortable with myself. I am happy with my appearance. I am secure in my marriage, and I know my calling in life. I have a young adult daughter and seventeen-year-old pilot son. My second daughter is fifteen, and I have a whole set of little kids to do things better with. I get a second chance at parenting with a different style! Not many people get that opportunity.
When I step back, and I look at my kids, I realize I may have made a ton of mistakes in life. However, there is so much I naturally did right, and it feels good, really good.
My eighteen-year-old daughter wrote a post on my Facebook wall and left me the following message. It is the kind of gift every mama yearns for, to hear the praises of her adult children saying you did a good job mama. You did a good job.
What has been your favorite stage in life?
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